Monday, February 15, 2010

I'm not quitting, but....

Well folks I haven’t updated my blog in a while, and I guess that it’s only fair that I do so, to let you know what is happening with me.

The first thing that I want to tell you is that I’m not quitting.

The second thing I want to tell you is the reason I haven’t been blogging, which is that I haven’t written much of anything in a long while.

And that all leads me down to the point I’m about to make. I’m bored with futanari porn. Maybe it’s the fact that I’ve more or less written only futanari porn over the last 2.5 years. At least, the stuff that I’ve posted.

In the end I was never so over the top infatuated with futanari as some others are. I guess my big fetish was always transformation. The act of changing from one being or creature into another. Initially I was enamored with feminization fetish, but in the end it didn’t cater enough to my interests. The female dominance angle aside (which was rarely a good thing) the transformation from being a man to having breasts and a vagina was interesting, but I did not want to do so to have heterosexual sex with a man, in my fantasies I still have no arousal towards men or anything masculine.

That’s when futanari interested me, because naturally there’s a change, or at least I typically involve one, where a man or a woman becomes a futanari. The change is sudden and affects not only their libido but their reasoning, and so on and so forth. We’ve all seen it a dozen times in stories, at least.

And if you look at my stories, the erotic ones at least, most of the better ones involve transformation. Terra, Club Vanilla, Chrysanthemum, the transformation scenes are some of the best, and rival the sex that happens soon thereafter.

So I guess the real honest truth is that futanari became boring to me. It’s more or less the same few scenes over and over again; before the transformation, transforming, self experimentation, making love for the first time (with the phallus/as a futa), impregnation, starting a family, etc etc etc, or however the specific stories go.

Now I guess if anyone’s reading this, you’ve probably assumed I’ve quit. And I haven’t done that, nowhere near it really. I’m just not as interested in writing futanari porn. At some point in time I look at myself and wonder why I write only for a fetish which starts to bore me. Hell, I look at some of my best stories as being my non erotic ones (set in the ‘What You Need’ later Terraverse) like Jamie and Phillip, Joan’s Baby, or Casey at Bat. I would love it if I could at least show my family some of my stories.

This has caused me to cut down on my time I’ve spent on futanari forums, like Futanari Palace  and F3. Well, dealing with the management at FP is one issue.

So where does this leave us? Well, naturally, my writing production has cut down a lot. I’m still interested in my stories, but not as much in others stories. But my focus now is on the plot, the story of Terra, and not unnecessary gropefests. I’m not saying I’ll never write a futanari sex scene again, I just mean that I’m less inclined to do the gratuitous unnecessary sex scenes.

I guess, if you’re (still) reading you are probably left to wonder what is going to happen with my stories. Well to be honest I’ve decided to put my effort into making Terra a story that is interesting enough to survive without relying on sex all of the time. (Though I’m sure a great many could observe that sex is hardly there all of the time.) I will continue to write Terra, and most likely finish my other stories, in fact I have a chapter of Terra half finished. I need to focus my time more on it, I admit, but real life has become a pain. I’ll go into more detail about that later, but for now, I haven’t given up.

To Celeborn, I assure you I’m nowhere near dead, just mostly lurking. Thanks for reading and taking a moment to comment.

And if you were wondering what else is going on in my life, well, I’ve mostly been playing on my new 360. I spent a lot of time playing Fallout 3, love it, and some other games (GTA4, L4D, RE5, to name a few) to a lesser extent. I’ve been trying to get ahead in general in life, but I wanted to take a break and enjoy something I’ve wanted for a while. It just set me back a bit…

And that’s all I’ve got for now. Didn’t mean to hurt anyone’s feelings, and I don’t want to do this as some attention whore being emo. I felt I owed it to anyone who takes the time to read my stuff to know what is going on.

 

Peace
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