The first thing that I want to say is that I don’t want people to think that I’m being a big crybaby. Please don’t interpret my actions as being overly emotional.
When I write, I write for myself. When I post a story, I do so for some kind of feedback, positive or negative. Roughly 350 or so people at FP and F3 read my story, or at least opened it. I’ll assume that if they opened the thread, they at least read some of it. And they didn’t like it, they didn’t care about it enough to bother putting down word one. They didn’t stop to say ‘Oh hey, this wasn’t very good, I didn’t like this.’ Or ‘I don’t like the world that you created, but it’s interesting.’ Or even ‘Hey I liked this.’ I post to receive comments. If I don’t get comments, I’ll continue to write, and continue to post it on my website. I’m wasting my time, and your time, by putting a story up that you’re not interested in.
But I post at FP and F3 for an audience, and if the audience does not enjoy me, then I’m not going to exhaust my effort for no gain. That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop writing, it means I’ll stop posting it at those venues.
Now I know that it’s selfish, and probably, I don’t know, all emo. I’m sure everyone thinks I would just be BAWWWWing if I were to actually announce it really. I know that there’s a small amount of people on FP that actually bother to read my blog, and that’s fine, I don’t read anyone else’s blog. So instead of just posting a ‘Oh my god guise, y don’t u liek me???’ post and essentially begging for some kind of response, I opted to try to just take it down without much ado. I made my blog post for the silent few that had read the story, and wanted to reread it, or wondered what happened to it, but would still opt not to ask me. I had wanted to avoid this kind of a post entirely, but I had been asked by a couple of people and thought a more general comment would be for the best.
The story can, and will always be, viewable at my website, where all of my stories are. And I don’t have intentions to post it at FP or F3 again. They can follow the link to my website and never comment on it there just as well as they can follow the link to FP and not comment. 350+(and rising) people can’t be wrong.
I’m not angry, not in the least bit. I’m apathetic. I write, and will continue to write. Just don’t wonder where I went if you don’t see my stories on your favorite forum. They’ll always be announced here and posted on my website.
I understand completely that Saffron wasn't an especially good work. It was at best a mediocre thing. I started writing it in the morning because it was just a story that I had in my head. When I finished it I imagined that it wouldn't wind up being especially well recieved. The tone of the story is hard to enjoy, and the world that they live in isn't a nice one. I experimented creating a world I did not like, but characters I did. They were importantly indicative of their society, and not rebels or people trying to undermine the authority. I realize that the lolicon/shotacon and tone weren't popular themes.
In the end I just removed a mediocre story that recieved no fanfare. The audience agreed with me, it was mediocre. If I can't get a reply in 350+ reads, then it's not especially good. If I can't get one of my regular readers to give me a pity comment, then it's not even worth reading. Most of the people who read my stuff give me far too much credit for far too little overall good. I'm not going to be a pain about it.
I thank my readers, and especially those who choose to comment to me about my stories. Saffron is up at my website if you ever want to read it. It is not up at Futanari Palace or F3. That is all, please return to your regular futanari programming.
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Yeah, it is back up at FP. So folks can read it there too. They commented more too. Though the reasons behind it may be debatable. I for one am glad that it is back. Even with failure there should be pride. It shows that you don't give a fuck if you didn't get replies or no one thought it was good. You still wrote it and there it is. And a little experimentation never hurt nobody. Trial and error.
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